Pissed off!!!

So I plan, I plan to the last detail... carry out my plan as I planned it...and I don't know why but end up in a situtation where I AM NO LONGER IN CONTROL. I am so pissed today. I miss one thing and the price I pay for it outrageaous. Make one assumption and everyone except me is fine. I...i am screwed. and ya..I CAN DO NOTHING ABOUT IT.

Someone makes some decision and that never reaches me...why coz I never knew that I should ask for every small thing, i should not make ANY assumptions at all...and now ....now all hell is loose...and m right in the middle of it.

Don't give me hope and patience. It's not about that. It's about being helpless. Hope and patience have nothing to do with helplessness. Say it in my face I screwed up rather than chocolate cover the problem. I am man enough to accept it. Ya I thought if everyone else I know gets it, me too... but nooooooooo..that is the most regretfull assumption I ever made...and now I will pay. Pay by being put back in time....for 2 f@#$ing years.

Man proposes, God disposes...and I am his favourite player in this f@#$ing game with.